happy new year

The clocks have changed, and I can’t sleep, as usual. I seem to have gone nocturnal.

Yesterday was spent doing a few Samhain preparations, I always like this time of year when the veils are thinner. For me it is a time to remember those who are gone or who missing from my life.

It must be because of this time of year that I’m talking to my missing ones in my dreams so much, trying to save memories from the numbing loss of time. This is a time to bring lost worlds a little closer. I hope if yr reading this, that you bear this in mind for your own life. Here is a site that explains what Samhain is http://www.cyberpict.net/sgathan/essays/samhain.htm but I think one has to find ones own way with these things, and for me this time is about family & connection, and prayer for closeness in the dark. If you watch one video or dvd this week, watch “eternal sunshine of the spotless mind” it is about this exact thing.

I haven’t written much here since Ilkley ended. I have been just trying to get my head back. I have hit my weight goal, I am now under 11 stones, I was 12stone 9 pounds when I started my new regime a few months back, so I feel great, and it has made me more flexible for my yoga too. I have no clothes that fit me however, everything is for a much bigger man.

This week I’m in Ireland I have a reading and some workshops. I hope to create a personal circuit over then next couple of years so I can tour more regularly. It is strange how important moving around has become to me. I don’t feel like I have a home aside from being in front of an audience. I wish I could come home, but I can’t find anywhere that feels right.

I have done a major update of my website, new photos, new layouts. I am so pleased with the photos, for one its a much slimmer me, and two, Linda, my photographer is so much fun, that the session was an absolute joy. I usually hate being photographed, but this was a lovely session, I will stick with her from now on.

No news on the book front, I sent art suggestions a couple of weeks ago.

Spent a mesmerised evening in front of the TV the other night watching Queen live at Milton Keynes from 1982. I saw them at Leeds a few days before this. The Gig at Leeds was the best thing I have ever been to, and this is such a memory trigger. Love of my life had me weeping buckets.

Music in the house this week:
Apparat
Miles Davis - Milestones
Queen – On Fire